It's so easy to do, to "hate on people", but it takes up so much energy.
I've hit that point again. I'm tired. I'm tired of being annoyed with certain people, and I'm tired of being disappointed by them. I'm just tired of hoping they'll treat me, and my family, with the respect and care that we've tried to show them time and time again.
I keep saying this is the last time, or we're going to stop trying. What is it that Einstein said?
Guess I'm insane. So why do I keep trying? Either I'm a sucker, which is very likely. Or I care too much, also very likely. You see, my father died suddenly, and unexpectedly when I was 18 so I know how precious life is, and I know we don't have forever. So I try to make the most out of all the relationships I have, to make sure I try my best to be there. But it wears on you, when you give and give, when you try and try and you get absolutely nothing in return. You become bitter, angry towards those people. After a while, you get exhausted from it.
So it's time to let go of all this crap again, start fresh. Love thy neighbor, treat others as you want to be treated. You know, all that kind of stuff. The stuff that life is really about. Well I keep trying with those individuals? Yes, because that's who I am. I just won't try as often, therefore giving them less opportunity to annoy me with how they treat my family. I'll surround myself, and my loved ones with pele who want us around, with the friends, and family, who show us that they care about us as much as we care for them.
Most of all I will pray for those who I've been "hatin'", that they figure it out soon. That until they do figure it out, God will watch over them and help guide them. I'll pray for strength to help me let go of everything I've been holding onto these past months.
I'll keep in mind these quotes I've found on pinterest to help me.
Do you ever just get exhausted from it all?