Tuesday, July 17, 2012

I'm Tired From All The "Hatin'"

I am human. I judge people, I try not to but I do. I also get annoyed with people and hold past experiences against them. After a while all these thoughts, grudges, judgements, whatever you want to call them build up. I get exhausted from holding onto them.

It's so easy to do, to "hate on people", but it takes up so much energy.

I've hit that point again. I'm tired. I'm tired of being annoyed with certain people, and I'm tired of being disappointed by them. I'm just tired of hoping they'll treat me, and my family, with the respect and care that we've tried to show them time and time again.

I keep saying this is the last time, or we're going to stop trying. What is it that Einstein said?
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Guess I'm insane. So why do I keep trying? Either I'm a sucker, which is very likely. Or I care too much, also very likely. You see, my father died suddenly, and unexpectedly when I was 18 so I know how precious life is, and I know we don't have forever. So I try to make the most out of all the relationships I have, to make sure I try my best to be there. But it wears on you, when you give and give, when you try and try and you get absolutely nothing in return. You become bitter, angry towards those people. After a while, you get exhausted from it.

So it's time to let go of all this crap again, start fresh. Love thy neighbor, treat others as you want to be treated. You know, all that kind of stuff. The stuff that life is really about. Well I keep trying with those individuals? Yes, because that's who I am. I just won't try as often, therefore giving them less opportunity to annoy me with how they treat my family. I'll surround myself, and my loved ones with pele who want us around, with the friends, and family, who show us that they care about us as much as we care for them.

Most of all I will pray for those who I've been "hatin'", that they figure it out soon. That until they do figure it out, God will watch over them and help guide them. I'll pray for strength to help me let go of everything I've been holding onto these past months.

I'll keep in mind these quotes I've found on pinterest to help me.

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Do you ever just get exhausted from it all?

7 comments:

  1. Yes! It is so hard sometimes...especially when dealing with families and "favorites". Just hard. Just plain ol' hard. I find myself in this position more times than I care to even think of and I always "go back" for more but I have been feeling this way too. I have forgiven and I can get over but we don't have to keep making opportunities to be hurt so plentiful!

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  2. I fall into this sometimes, too. It is so hard when people disappoint us or let us down when they don't treat us like we would treat them.

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  3. I'm with you.. I think it's because you care too much not that you're a sucker. I just told my dad that I'd rather be nice to a fault than to be a mean person. Even when someone hurts my feelings I can't bring myself to hurt them back because it's mean and I know how it feels.

    Who knows, maybe being too nice makes us suckers in some people's eyes but I'd rather it to the alternative :)

    I hope you feel better about your hatin :) Have a great week!

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  4. I know the feeling. You can't change how people are so either you have to accept them for who/what they are or not at all. A wise woman once told me never to do something that you will resent. Life is to short. You can't give everything you have to someone else it will leave nothing for you.

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  5. I love this post. It is so true...life is to short. I too care to much about what people think, but keep the same thing in mind. I try to treat others the way I want to be treated. Thanks for stopping by my blog and so happy I found yours :)

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  6. Thanks for this! Love those quotes! I found ya via Texas Lovebirds, I'm excited about following your blog!

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